Monday, December 29, 2014

OF LOVE... BE CAREFUL NOT TO PRECONCEIVE LOVE



OF LOVE…

Our dance resembled the unstructured ecstasy,
In spite of and before foreshadowed love,
Whose steps mimicked young emotions that could not comprehend one beat,
so we continued to dance but pushed our hearts into a dispassionate retreat,
reveling  in the sweet, unbridled rituals of unpretentious lust…



In our crusade to rarefy passion from what men called love,
we found that, (for the present at least), lust far better suited us,
until love could cultivate a more substantial history to quote,
for now, love’s potential seemed presumptuously remote,
so we worshiped what we felt and let it choreograph our way,



There was no more philosophically rewarding exercise to crown these days,
than when we consumed the remnant of our innocence to worldly ways,
replacing it with that robust gentility that lovers oft explore,
reveling only in the moments passion, invoking nothing more,
than what grows in the Fraganardian gardens of love…



Conclusion:

Love is a blessing queerly grown,
a boundless freedom no man can own,
do not name the soil round passions seed,

it may not germinate to need… 

FIN

BY BIGDADDY BLUES


Wednesday, December 17, 2014

THE MATURE MALE DIALOGUE III: MAPPING OUT THE LANDSCAPE OF ORAL SEX




HANDS FREE ORAL SEX:
For Many Men Simple Is Better But Others Are Like Mature Kids In A Candy Store!

Many purists prefer the most basic form of fellatio delivered through 100% oral stimulation. But there are at least three different kinds of fellatio styles.

1. Technically Assisted Fellatio
2. Manually Assisted Fellatio
3. Hands Free Fellatio

GLOSSARY:

FELLATIO: The art including the various techniques that may be employed delivering oral stimulation and pleasure to the male penis. 

TECHNICALLY ASSISTED FELLATIO:  The use of electrically powered external devices or apparatuses such vibrators, penile pumps, a flesh-light or other mechanical devices including a penile ring or scrotum stretcher/separator, a dildo, an anal plug, etc., used in order to enhance penile arousal in addition to using oral fellatio techniques but not exceeding more than 30 percent of the total penile stimuli.

MANUALLY ASSISTED FELLATIO:  When the fellator uses their hands to manually deliver penile arousal in addition to using oral fellatio techniques; these non-oral features include non-electrical accessory devices introduced to enhance penile stimuli but not exceeding 30 percent of the total penile stimuli.  Manually assisted fellatio may include non-mechanical devices inserted, attached or applied to the genitalia, rectum, nipples or other body parts including sounding devices, spanking, paddling, flogging, binding, cuffing, restraining, etc.

HANDS FREE FELLATIO: When no external, mechanical or manual devices are used to achieve penile stimulation and the fellator relies solely on their oral skills, techniques and rituals to achieve orgasm or to satisfy their host.  Hands-free fellatio is qualified by the use of 100 percent oral stimulation techniques.  Hands-free techniques may include licking, sucking, breathing, kissing, verbalization, slavering, spitting, use of lips, throat, tongue, jaws, oral massage, pressure, oscillation, biting, compressing, pulling/stretching, etc.

FELLATOR: The person or device who administers penile stimulation by orally massaging and arousing the male sex organ including the scrotum.

RECIEVER:  The man who is receiving oral penile stimulation administered by the fellator. 



A man who truly enjoys the pleasures of oral sex either as the fellator or the recipient of fellatio will tell you that it is all about technique.  The way the any sexual encounter ultimately plays out usually depends on a mix of variables beginning with a sexual attraction, then a sexual ritual or plan ensues calling upon a host of other support systems such as a sexual arsenal consisting of toys and erotic gadgets and of course the essential collection of sexual techniques or skills.  All of these features can be easily identified as a distinct pattern that represents the sexual style of the fellator and the recipient. 



Every sexual ritual consists of a step by step progression of sex which can be structured in a simple linear outline.  A sexual ritual always has a singular point of arousal precipitated by the initiator. For oral sex the opening session, the body and closing sessions define a ritual that consists completely of what is generally considered to be foreplay.  It is important to note that when fellatio becomes the exclusive type of sexual interaction orally induced stimulation and orgasm replaces intercourse as the primary sex act.  Most men do not think of oral sex as an end unto itself, it has traditionally been treated as a warm-up to intercourse because in the heterosexual model sex was intended solely for the purpose of reproduction and not merely for pleasure. Oral sex is really no different from intercourse if one approaches it merely with the intent of delivering sexual pleasure.  Oral rituals can be strictly defined within sexual roles but often oscillate back and forth as each partner assumes a servicing or role or a receiving role.  Oral techniques may be substituted by or mixed with other sexual techniques as partner’s progress through their sexual rituals whether their roles change or not.  The final stage of the oral ritual is when orgasm or the equivalent of satiation is achieved consummating the lovemaking acts.  Simply put a sexual ritual is merely a distinct pattern of progressive sex acts beginning with suggestion and arousal and ending in orgasm or erotic satiation.   When fellatio is the exclusive theme for a sexual ritual it typically has a linear structure which is easily outlined as a phased application of various oral techniques employing specific elements of a sexual arsenal that often characterize a distinct sexual style.



Once a sexual ritual begins it requires specialized support features in order for the involved parties to properly play it out.  These features will be pulled from a sexual arsenal of tools which may include a collection of oral techniques only.  Some technical tools may also be incorporated to enhance the ritual and they may consist of various sexual apparatuses, mechanical devices, visual and audio media, tactile tools such as oils, apparel, whips or verbalization.  The oral ritual changes as the fellator and the recipient advance to intensified stages of sexual exploration and appeasement relying on established techniques and introducing new stimuli in a pattern intended to bring pleasure to both.  An example of an oral ritual would be to begin with verbal stimuli describing the ensuing stages of the ritual as a tease, massaging the areas around the male genitalia but not the genitalia themselves, changing into a seductive costume or undressing completely leaving the other partner fully clothed, applying heat or cold to the genitalia while he is clothed, unzipping the trousers or lowering the pants so that the genitalia is exposed then adorning them with penile jewelry such as a ring or stretcher. Finally the ritual might include oral pleasure moving from the scrotum up to the tip of the penis concentrating on various erogenous zones to consummate the sexual act.  Consummation of fellatio or any other sexual ritual does not have to include orgasm as in the example of role players whose goal is to explore dominance and submission as a primary end unto itself in which case orgasm is clearly secondary to obedience.  No matter how the fellatial ritual plays itself out it will always pull from a support system of tools and the skills to effectively employ them as part of a unique sexual style.



While a sexual ritual is easily mapped the actual sexual techniques employed are far more difficult to define in an outlined form.  We can simplify oral techniques in a short list including Technical, Manual and Hands-Free techniques but in actuality most but not all oral rituals consist of a combination of all three techniques.  Purists mostly prefer an all-oral technique where the fellator uses their mouth, lips, gums, throat, lips and saliva in order to massage and stimulate the various areas of the penis scrotum and crotch.  These techniques may include sucking, licking, breathing of hot or cold air against the genitalia, compressing, pulling, rotating the orifice, sliding up and down the shaft, slavering, biting, kissing, tonguing, etc., etc., etc. but always only with the exclusive use of the mouth.  A hands-free technique can easily be the most physically demanding and psychologically rewarding of all three techniques because the fellator cannot rely on any external devices to give his mouth a rest and therefore requires a great deal of stamina typically gained with extensive experience administering the fully oral technique.  Furthermore the receiver enjoys the psychological pleasure and assurance that his fellator has given 100 percent of their attentiveness and as is often the case he has become actively involved in the ritual application of oral techniques to guide the fellator toward his own pleasure.  At the end of the day fellatio is all about the predominant use of artful oral techniques purposed to bring a more humanly tactile and intimate dynamic to the administering of penile pleasure over technical and manual fellatio styles. 



The hands-free technique may not be as effective as the technical and manual fellatio styles when it comes to satisfying a man who is used to enjoying penile stimulation through auto-erotic hand techniques or mechanical stimulation through external devices and is looking for oral stimulation merely as a substitute for them. At some point we should endeavor to determine the limits of what is acceptable as Fellatio marking a cut-off point for sexual techniques that employ oral techniques, rituals and styles but only marginally causing them to fall into other non-oral categories.  Consider this example for contrast; a convertible automobile is either a hard removable top or a soft retractable top, having an adjustable skylight/vent opening to about 15 degrees does not transform an automobile into a convertible the same as minimal oral content and technique does not constitute a true fellatio style.  Fellatio is fellatio!



Oral fellatio specialists would be wise to consider that receivers who come from a strong auto-erotic background may prefer a more linear style that mimics the up and down pattern they generally use on themselves and the fellator should be quite sensitive to the level of intensity required to actually deliver adequate stimulation as auto-erotic stimulation can often apply more torque and pressure to the penis than a mouth can comfortably deliver.  It is simple physics that in the application of fellatio the mouth is not an equal substitute for the hand because it does not have the same lever arm mechanical advantage. The best way to gauge how much manual work needs to be incorporated into an oral technique is simply by watching the recipient demonstrate his auto-erotic style of reaching orgasm and modifying to fit your oral style.  The pattern of stimulation should be noted as a reference for applying a purely hands free, manual/oral or technical/oral technique but changing the sequence is suggested from time to time in order to add diversity and surprise.  The manual technique will involve hand massage that closely simulates the recipient’s own manual technique with oral highlights and supplementation at varying degrees of necessity.  It can be argued that a manual oral technique that incorporates 30 percent or less manual technique is really not pure fellatio at all.  It is my opinion that true fellatio requires a minimum of 50-60 percent oral technique leaning toward the higher end of 60-75 percent of oral style. 



Naturally this brings us to the subject of technically assisted fellatio techniques which are becoming more popular as electrical apparatuses become more specialized, sophisticated and affordable.  The utilisation of butt-plugs, dildos and such both vibrating and non-mechanical, the use of penile rings, stretchers, sounding devices can loosely be defined as tools of a sexual arsenal intended to support technically assisted fellatio.  Again, similar to manual fellatio techniques, technical fellatio techniques that become pared down to 30 percent or less actual oral technique risk being disqualified as fellatio because they have far too little oral content.  While nobody expects sexual partners involved in a fellatio ritual to actually gauge the ratio of oral to mechanical content using a stopwatch it is the purpose of this article to suggest reasonable limits for each category of fellatio style.  Technically enhanced fellatio rituals can certainly be some of the most interesting because they employ non-traditional methodology to the explication of the genre of fellatio!  We all should consider embracing the current trends to expand our enjoyment of oral sex especially if it has not captured our attention before.  Mechanical devices that are electrically driven such as electric wands, penile rings and scrotum stretchers, sounding devices, anal plugs and dildos, nipple rings, clamps and other sexual apparatuses that use electrically motivated impulses to create arousing sensations are here to stay and they are amazingly effective for raising the bar when it comes to any kind of sexual technique or ritual.  More and more purists who exclusively enjoy hands-free fellatio admit to incorporating unique electrical devices into their sexual arsenals and rituals without any loss of oral proficiency.  Technically assisted fellatio techniques define an uncharted landscape appealing to those who enjoy giving and receiving fellatio but as with all things people must find a balance that preferably maintains the human, tactile element of one of the simplest forms of sexual pleasure a man can enjoy.  I have never been a proponent of the belief that a machine could ever replace a human being when it comes to sex and fellatio is no exception.  I believe that manual and mechanical accessories can be incorporated as part of a healthy and enjoyable fellatio ritual and during those times when it may be impossible or impractical to get the real thing a man simply has to brace himself planning ahead.  In these times when modern men are overwhelmed by the intensification of potentially sexually transmitted diseases among partners I encourage careful screening and the use of safe and reasonable sex techniques with new and established sexual partners who mutually enjoy fellatio.   I went into greater detail about fellatio because I perceived that while many men do or do not enjoy it they do not really understand why; this is often because they have never really verbalized it or given it any serious consideration.  There is the crowd that will say  sex is sex, putting too much thought into it will ruin it”, but I argue that since for many men it represents the most popular form of enjoyment it cannot be given enough thought!  We improve at things we want to improve at, grow stronger from things we understand and what man does not want to get better at sex?  Why gentlemen as if enough has not already been said, this one is a no-brainier

FIN

WRITTEN BY BIGDADDY BLUES







Saturday, November 29, 2014

THE EIGHTH ENCOUNTER: EULOGY FOR A ONCE IMAGINED LOVE


THE EIGHTH ENCOUNTER


THE FIRST ENCOUNTER:
As he spoke my eyes drifted up and down his firm, stocky build not like a searchlight or a spotlight but rather like mental x-ray gathering mapping data for later use…  I tried stretching our conversation feeling the tension between us, neither one of us wanted to leave but neither wanted to be the first to ask for a number or to pass a business card because it meant we might not follow up.  I didn’t want to leave that variable floating and wanted to eloquently affirm that we were no longer just “conversating” anymore, we were flirting.  But there is something in the male machismo that cannot acknowledge itself when that self raises questions about power, vulnerability and manhood as it might be seen in the eyes of others; it needs to exist but cannot or will not classify itself. It needs to be verified in the eyes of others. Until a man feels comfortable with his image and in spite of whether or not he perceives the reflection of himself is favorably mirrored in the eyes of others he wants to take precautions to conceal his truth perhaps conveniently inside an easily dissolved association or a convertible friendship that is both casual and sexually intimate whichever suits the purpose of camouflage.  It is ultimately a man's natural desire to keep intimacy private which he must more than ever reconcile with a society that has become more intrusive in its attempt to unravel the guilt and shame humanity has o'erburdend human sexuality with in the name of religion.  Admitting to be gay in spite of the fact that a man is a man in every stereotypical and natural sense of the word requires a different kind of inner strength that machismo cannot sustain because it is overly concerned with how a man is externally perceived. Admitting to be sexually attracted to another man in lieu of the immanent possibility that the other man may not be gay requires an heroic and fearless and patently mature brand of manhood that one cannot get by wearing a popular football jersey and memorizing sports trivia.  We both navigated through that singular obstacle, who will come out to the other first, who will be vulnerable first as if truth could be possessed of some kind of weakness.  The man who is able to confront his passion without having to fight his superego is the stronger man in the end because he is not weakened by the opinions of others!  So although we both wanted to say, “Hey man I think you are a sexy brotha and I’d like to get to know you better lets exchange numbers so that we can contact one another when we have time to focus,” we stumbled around the way people who do who do not know each other and do not have time to enjoy the first promising moments of a romance do.  Modern life has put love on a timecard.



THE SECOND ENCOUNTER:
“This is Jimmi Banks nice meeting you today in the Farragut West subway station.  I’m on the train to work now and wanted to text you before the day pulled me away from our pleasant encounter.  I’ll be off at 5:30 by the way that station is my transfer point so if you are around at that time maybe we can meet for coffee.  By the way I have to say you were so handsome this morning and I noticed that you were wearing Jean Patou, it smells so sexy on you.  Let me know your availability, if you are interested, by texting me back promptly.”



THE THIRD ENCOUNTER:
“Hi Jimmi, Brandon Scruggs here", the man wearing Jean Patou replied,  "and please allow me to return the complement, you were the handsome prince I saw on the platform this morning and it was so difficult to tear myself away and but for the early meeting I had I would have stayed longer.  Well I have another meeting at 6:30 but I’d love to meet you for coffee around 5:45 while I wait for my clients to arrive, we can steal about 15 minutes at least to chat.  I’m going out of town after my meeting but I’d like to have breakfast with you this Saturday if you will be free.”  See you at 5:45 at Baldwin’s Café; and yes I am wearing Jean Patou!” 



FOURTH ENCOUNTER:
“Hi Jimmi, sorry I’m late, my clients phoned me with some last minute details they could have just saved for our meeting.  I see you already ordered for me, how did you know I liked heavy cream in my coffee and that I liked dark roast?  I’ve been thinking about you all day man, really, I wish I could take you with me to Cincinnati tonight!  I travel a lot for my job and I hope to close this account in Ohio in the morning.  If I can get that business closed by noon Thursday I’ll be on a plane back to D.C. Friday evening and in my bed by 8:00 Friday night.  So do you have any plans for Saturday morning, if not we should have breakfast on me handsome?” 

As Jimmi listened intently to Brandon’s calming voice it suddenly dawned on him that Brandon was married or intimately involved, he just knew it! So he rudely cut Brandon off in mid-stream asking him.  Jimmi went silent for about ten uneasy seconds during which time his usual confident swagger suffered an unexpected turbulence but as soon as he was able to assemble a partially reconstructed one it was time to go!  He promised to call jimmi as soon as he got settled in his hotel room puckering his lips as if in a goodbye kiss and disappeared into the busy rush-hour sidewalk traffic of tired office workers heading back to the suburbs. 

Brandon came by Jimmi’s house around 1:30 A.M. and with little conversation they immediately undressed each other and had some of the most beautiful lovemaking either of them had experienced in many years.  Brandon drove Jimmi to his job that morning having spent the night.  They made love of course, first thing in the morning and it was even better than the first time… strange as it may seem they bonded that morning in a way neither of them had expected and neither of them really paid attention to what had happened between them because it happened so darned fast!



THE FIFTH ENCOUNTER:
“Hello Jimmi, just got settled in my room.  I’m having a late dinner with my colleagues and we are going to make a late meeting to develop strategies for the morning.  You’ll be the first one to know the good or bad news tomorrow.  Can’t wait till I see you again Saturday morning man, Cheers!”



THE SIXTH ENCOUNTER:
“Hello Jimmi, I got the account.  Man we met from early this morning until 10:00 PM. so I missed my flight out of Cincinnati tonight but I booked one early Saturday morning, my flight will be arriving in Dulles Airport around 7:45 A.M. I’m sure I’ll be hungry as ever man.  Did you think of a place yet?  Let me know it’s completely my treat man I just want to see you in person again and not have to be watching the clock.  Be sure to text me back all the information so I can meet you there, this time I’ll be on time man.”



THE SEVENTH ENCOUNTER:
Brandon picked Jimmi up Saturday morning around 9:00 A.M. having just driven directly into D.C. from Dulles International Airport in suburban Virginia after his flight landed.  It looked as if they had finally got some time to enjoy each other’s company without any distractions.  They ordered breakfast at a restaurant called “Yo Mamma’s Kitchen” but decided to take carryout so they could eat in a more relaxed environment at Jimmi’s place.  In the back of both of their minds was the expectation of round 3 of their inspired lovemaking.  The food and the conversation seemed to be just a backdrop for what they were really waitig for which was to be alone and in one anthers arms.  Brandon ordered catfish’n grits and some buttermilk-cornbread hot cakes with a honey-maple syrup.  Jimmi ordered country ham’n grits with fried okra cakes served with an oyster crème sauce.  They were on their way to Jimmi’s townhouse when Brandon’s phone began to blow up.  After the uncomfortable silence begging the question that was never answered Brandon picked the phone up and entered into a neutral discussion that seemed to be about business. 

“Baby,” Brandon started,  “I have to take some luggage to one of my colleagues who is going back out of town at noon.  I forgot I had his bag in my car he left it when I drove him to his rental from the airport.  I have to take it to him it’s his laptop and credentials.  It shouldn’t take more than 20 minutes I’ll just drop it off to him in Arlington and turn right back around.”

Jimmi responded, “Okay, cool Brandon I guess it is what it is man, I’ve waited this long so what’s a few more minutes?  Just call me when you are headed back so I can have the food warm and ready in the dining room.“

Jimmi was clearly disappointed but the story seemed reasonable to him at the time. In the meantime he busied himself with some household tasks in the basement which he had long neglected.  While he worked he did not even notice how much time had passed.  Brandon had dropped him off at home with the food at around 10:15 A.M. promising to return in 20 minutes but  it was now 5:00 P.M. almost 7 hours later and Brandon had not even called him.  Jimmi had been so busy he feared he had missed Brandon’s call and immediately checked his phone for a text or call around 10:45 A.M. but there were no calls or texts from Brandon.  Suddenly Jimmi felt hungry and that is when he realized breakfast had been sitting on the dining room table all this time which he ended up paying for because Yo Mama’s only took cash and Brandon only had plastic.  “Dayum!” Jimmi said, “I knew that bastard was married.  He just forgot about me or couldn’t call me once he got home, back in the hotbed, he probably pulls this same stunt with a dozen brothas and always gets caught by his wife or husband or girlfriend or boyfriend or whatever! But I’m done! No more!”



THE EIGHTH ENCOUNTER:
Jimmi was hurt like he had never been before and it bothered him because he did not even know Brandon but he felt something strong and special with him.  He thought that every time he was hurt it was always different but the older he got the harder it was to recover.  Jimmy was only 42 but he had a great deal of experience in the life and everything he knew he taught himself.  He never had a mentor in the gay lifestyle and so he learned from his own mistakes and wisdom.  Fortunately he had come through life pretty much unscathed because he had such a positive and philosophic nature.  He thought on it for several days before coming to the resolution that Brandon was not going to ever call him or contact him with an explanation.  Jimmi was not a confrontational man but he was a man who handled his business and did so as a gentleman.  He realized that Brandon had committed the ultimate betrayal of disrespect.  They were not lovers thankfully but now it was clear they never could be.  Brandon’s failure to communicate with Jimmi, leaving him dangling was inexcusable, and Jimmi knew that no matter how much he loved Brandon he could not ignore this blazing red flag.  So, Jimmi decided to call Brandon if for nothing else shock value.  Brandon answered the phone from his hotel room someplace in New England or at least that is what he said.  Jimmi asked him why he did not return for breakfast and Brandon had no explanation to offer only a standard plea for forgiveness.  Brandon had decided not to get emotional, not to give in and not to go off because after all they hardly even knew each other.  The lovemaking they shared which had once seemed so special now seemed cheap and premature stripped of all the warm hallmarks of man to man perspicuity.  Jimmi knew better but he had somehow fallen in love.  He wondered if his having been single for so long had weakened his judgment?  He felt as if he had finally lost the iron-clad edge that had got him through his younger years unscathed, he had been worn down by time.  But there was still some strength in him yet and for this last chapter with Brandon he had to muster all of it.  So he told Brandon how hurt he felt and he advised him that he just called to bring closure even though Brandon’s actions had pretty much bought closure anyway.  He wanted to part on a positive note and he wanted to hear Brandon’s voice again but never again after that call had ended.  Brandon called Jimmi and texted him several times later then more and more sporadically until he stopped altogether.  Jimmi stopped dating not because he no longer could feel love but because he no longer desired to feel pain at the loss of love…

FIN


WRITTEN BY BIGDADDY BLUES


Sunday, November 23, 2014

IT WAS SOMETHING IN THE WAY YOU LOVED


THE WAY YOU LOVED…

i was certain the first time we met,
that if I opened up there would be no reason for regret,
what was honest I had no reason to suspect,
it was something in the way you loved,

i was eager to fathom your soul,
bold as a boundless force there could be no power to control,
in its promise there burned a mystery so feint,
it lay hidden in the way you loved,

time has weathered my patience for you,
true at this very time there would be no reason to renew,
but I’ve questioned just how much longer I could wait,
for something in the way you loved…


fin


Written By BIGDADDY BLUES


Tuesday, November 18, 2014

EXPLORING SEXUAL THERAPY IN REVENGE: BALANCING THE EQUATION OF SEXUAL FREEDOM AFTER BETRAYAL

An ancient Chinese Phallic Tool (Jadeite)


REVENGE-SEX THERAPY: Just How Sweet 

Can It Be?


I know that it sounds petty for a person to cheat on their lover for the simple reason that their lover has cheated on them but when viewed through a more liberal lens it may be that cheating-revenge sex can actually be an effective therapeutic technique for managing the stress created by a cheating lover or spouse.   Reconciling a sexual breach within a sexually committed relationship is a complex undertaking that quite honestly just has never been effectively achieved within the rules of mainstream therapy.  I believe  it is purely possible for many established therapeutic and psychiatric techniques to be too civilized to ever be effective! 


An Ancient Chinese Two-Way Phallic Tool


After all, sex is a primal, instinctual thing that begins to lose much of its luster once it begins to become overly intellectualized.  Within a relationship sex acts as a critical balancing force of gratification.  No longer free to play the field, sexual partners must turn to one other in order to provide sufficient sexual energy to drive their respective libido’s.  This makes understanding your partner’s libido and being able to deliver the sexual gratification they need to function smoothly a crucial survival skill that is more than often grossly underdeveloped and under attended.  Small wonder then why so many committed relationships which are otherwise functional in every other respect end up having to manage the dysfunction of cheating.

Ancient Chinese Phallic Tool


Let’s just be realistic about the whole thing, monogamy is a huge sacrifice that none of us is forced to make or take seriously if not only because we are free to choose, to live and to act as we desire.  Every human being cherishes their sexual freedom and undoubtedly relinquishes it grudgingly, cautiously and therefore legally within the constraints of a marriage contract or some other facsimile that suits their situation! Many people believe that monogamy is an unnatural overlay of human instinct acting in direct contradiction to a man’s libido and potential to freely express his primal urges.   So the single qualifying factor that ultimately stays a man’s hand from opening the door to cheating on his partner is the seriousness he feels about his integrity within the commitment he has made.  His commitment and ability to remain faithful says in clear words, ‘I honestly value sex with my partner above anyone else”.  Likewise, the mutual agreement people make when they decide to become sexually exclusive says, "As long as we are both sexually and/or emotionally viable do not cheat me from my right to enjoy my sexual/emotional freedom while you enjoy yours!"


18th Century Chinese Phallic Tool


While we are being honest about sex lets contemplate the unmentionable, the unthinkable but unfortunately unavoidable prospect of sexual betrayal.   Because we go through such pains to negotiate what appears to be a fair and mutual agreement of sexual fidelity when our partner breaches this trust without consulting us it rings the very bell of doom! Anger is the single emotion that usually fills the void left by infidelity.  In the aftermath of cheating a relationship undergoes a complete reconfiguration if it survives at all.  All at once everything must be re-negotiated as if both parties are free-agents again.  They might come back to the negotiation table but almost certainly not under the same terms giving rise to the saying that “Certain kinds of trusts once breached should never be entertained again having proved themselves unreliable.”  I have always thought it a waste to break-up an otherwise good companionship over infidelity alone, that it was wise to break away from monogamy or even discontinue sex with one another completely focusing on and moving forward with the enrichment of a fine and successful companionship cultivated over many long years.  But that is a very rational and civilized solution which in most cases is far too reasonable to survive the anger, denial, fear and frustration in full froth at the time that infidelity is first revealed.   


Ancient Asian Phallic Tool


Given the intensely instinctual nature of cheating it is no small wonder that most conventional clinical methods of managing this phenomenon are utterly ineffective because their foundation rests on the naïve premise that somehow the human libido can be suppressed in a healthy manner.  We know the opposite is typically true, that once explored the prospect of sex outside of a relationship only begins to grow and grow far greater in the consciousness like a caged animal bent on escape! Standard clinical methodology focuses on preventing future sexual infidelity when it should perhaps begin to explore a broader indulgence of extramarital sexual activity especially to be applied in the healing of the partner who has been betrayed as a form of “Sexual-Revenge cheating” that I call “REVENGE-SEX THERAPY”! When someone discovers they have been cheated on the first thing they realize is how many sexual offers they have turned down when they might have experienced a far more fulfilling sex life.  As petty as it may seem the betrayed almost needs to have a series of casual sexual encounters with strangers in order to bring the tally up to balance.  At best it bodes to be an inexact science because while it may take one may 10 encounters to feel as if he has avenged his lover it may only take another man 1 or none at all.  Trying to set a number would obviously be too arbitrary to be an effective measurement of therapeutic benefit.  The best rule of thumb when employing the technique of sexual revenge cheating would be to just continue having sex with men other than your partner until you finally felt avenged.  As dark as it may seem to admit this, the technique of sexual revenge cheating works best when your partner is not aware that you are cheating back on them, it provides the comfort and edginess, the risk and shadiness which are all critical ingredients for an effective feeling of accomplishment in revenge…


Ancient Asian Phallic Tool


Sexual revenge cheating is usually only amounts to empty sex but physically and psychologically may help distance a person from the hurt of a sexual betrayal and used as such it is actually a good tool for emotional recovery.  Having used this method in the past I found that the more revenge sex I had the easier it was to dissolve my anger at losing out on all the "Good Sex" I had turned down in order to be faithful to an unfaithful partner.  Sometimes I might need to have sex with one or five people before I felt I had evened the score! Petty isn't it? But life is often quite petty and sometimes we truly have to do what we have to do in order to best cope with situations that catch us at unawares and hit us like a brick wall.

 
American Phallic Tool Late 1800's

It is my belief that the technique of post-infidelity recovery I have coined as ”REVENGE-SEX THERAPY” which is the plain and simple practice of applied “Sexual-Revenge Cheating” actually is not cheating at all; it really is all about evening the score, healing the soul, balancing the equation and expressing ones sexual freedom!  Sexual freedom is a huge concept.  It is possible to achieve sexual freedom within the context of a monogamous relationship but that freedom is always going to be based on a balance maintained by both partners.  When two people achieve sexual freedom of expression as a unit it means they completely understand one another sexually becoming an outlet for mutual sexual expression. But when one party holds back expanding their sexual exploration outside of the union the equation is unbalanced.  It’s not just about the cheater making certain that he fulfills his obligation to satisfy his partners sexual needs it is about the fact that he has introduced another variable into the equation affording him freedoms denied to his equal partner!  In my opinion the first act of cheating renders any covenant of sexual fidelity invalid freeing up the other partner to do as he desires without fear of being penalized for breaking a contract that has already been broken. 


Chinese Phallic Tool (Ivory) 1700's


It is an easy enough thing to gallivant on a lusty adventure of sexual-revenge cheating but there comes a time when the frolics must end and both mature adults need to address the reason why it was all necessary.  For the betrayed the real problem occurs after they have evened up the score suddenly realizing they have options and the person they were devoted to seems less like the prize they once imagined them to be.  They begin to reshape their esteem of their cheating partner rethinking the foundation of their commitment. What they may see before them is an exit route from a situation that has shattered to the point of no return.  That is the real risk of embarking upon revenge sex therapy. 


Antique Phallic Tool


Commitment is about a mutual respect, it is a complex balancing act that requires the constant maintenance of two fully operative individuals.  When that critical balance goes awry it is time to put your heads together in order to understand just what happened!  The answer could be an easy fix or it could be a total dump... in any event revenge sex will ultimately have a myriad of outcomes; for example, if the revenge sex was good it will remind you that your partner is not the best sexual match but he might have been a good emotional match, it it is bad it will remind you that sex is not the primary component of a relationship and will cause you to question the emotional commitment of your partner. Where you take it after that point is a matter of personal judgment.  In my own experience it usually has a neutralizing effect foreshadowing the end of the relationship and the beginning of a new platonic one.  There may be an interim phase established with an understanding of openness to seek sexual and emotional gratification outside of each other... at least until something unexpected happens pushing us in new direction or into opposite ones.  


Vibrator 1950's


The point of the matter is not to fail after your partner has cheated because you failed to explore a new dynamic that might suit the evolution of your relationship expanding it to an open relationship.  Furthermore, you should consider having sex with other partners outside of your relationship as a means of healing the deep wounds of betrayal and most effectively without their knowledge.  Before you embark on such a lusty journey you should certainly be absolutely sure your partner has actually cheated and that it is not purely a construct of your vivid imagination!  Never discount the effectiveness of non-traditional clinical methods for managing infidelity especially since statistically it is quite obvious these traditional methods do not work and have never been challenged for obvious legal and social reasons.  Open your mind to the possibility that “REVENGE-SEX THERAPY” applied through the implementation of managed “Sexual-Revenge Cheating” can heal the potentially devastating effects of sexual betrayal and may actually help in the natural evolution of an otherwise stable companionship into a new and open relationship style…


Antique French Sex Chaise 1700's

FIN


Written By: BIGDADDY BLUES

Monday, November 10, 2014

SESSIONS OF ATTEMPTED LOVE

sessions…

each time i made what i hoped was love i'd trust
it was a sign of progression,
now this accounts for how earnestly i tried,
for my patient disappointment with uncovered lies,
for the mixed accomplishment and loneliness i'd hide,
beneath an humility that fortified my pride,
but each time i made what i thought was love it was just 
another erotic session…

By Bigdaddy Blues




Sunday, November 9, 2014

ALL IN: A LOVE GAME



ALL IN

Your presence moved me to a schoolboy crush,
holding cards that opened into a royal flush,
your lips raised stakes even the dealer missed,
it all played out in a quick and dirty hush,

Your aces turned out to be full of game,
the other players hands were full of blame,
they’d hold out for as long as they could fold,
until you swallowed them up in shame,

with me, the stakes soared higher than they had ever been,
you’d raise them and I’d elevate the game again,
the spark or its annuity has set a different course,
leaving only one way to go and so I am all in….


By Bigdaddy Blues

Friday, November 7, 2014

ABOUT YOU: WHERE I BELONG...


ABOUT YOU

Love was never funny before I laughed with you,
before you, silence had never been a song,
beside you life is so full I’ve so much left over f rom you,
without you, it is so clear to see where I belong…

BIGDADDY BLUES

Saturday, October 25, 2014

A NEW BREED OF MEN UNCOVERED

Michael Sam Breaking The Sexual Stereotypes Of  Pro-Football

THE AWAKENING OF A NEW BREED OF GAY MEN…

If I had a date for every time another man told me he was afraid to hit on me because he didn’t think I was gay I’d probably have a date for a change… Whenever I hear this, and I hear it quite frequently, it begs the following questions:

1.    Really? You mean to tell me that you have waited how many years to finally approach me?
2.    What in the world did you miss when it became quite clear that we were flirting with one another? Did you think I was a straight man who just liked to flirt with gay men?

So I wondered if the answer could be that these men suffered from low self-esteem and just needed more convincing on my part, was it that they totally missed the fact that I was flirting with them or could it have been they were just flirting themselves and were not truly serious about connecting at all.  I wondered if they were afraid of rejection or that I would be insulted and call them out in public as a homosexual.  But the underlying reality, I feared, was that it was a combination of all of these and more… these men could have been ashamed of their own sexuality, and I said, “Could have been”, whether because of religion or some notion of cultural inappropriateness.  What I had stumbled upon may have been the naked truth that they had allowed their fear of how others might perceive them to blind them and prevent them from finding happiness… as the concept overtook me its gravity pulled me down to a bleak, lonely place where men allowed their fears to strip them of their manhood leaving them to lurk cautiously in the shadows.  This was not a place I knew or desired to stay and I understood straightway that any person who populated that hopeless dungeon of human existence could never be a man in the sense that I respected and therefore could never command the attention of my heart… I pitied such men but my inner humanitarian wanted to reach out and pull each and every one of them out of their self-excavated pit.  I checked my vanity at the door of this revelation hoping to gain a level perspective that did not put me in a better place than these men who were no less men than I.  After all, every man struggles with his own demons and fears and none of them is really any greater or lesser than any other one… like us they are all the same… all challenges equal in mangnitude…

Like a man who finds he is a rarefied breed living and passing as just anyone else I eagerly sought out those of my kind but found that even more difficult than following my pitiable would-be suitors into the abyss.  I asked myself if there was some code or password by which men of my kind recognised one another, a gilded emblem upon the pocket square, the color and species of buttoner in my lapel?  Certainly there was a secret order of such men but I having been too undetectable was not inducted into its ranks?

Marlon Riggs, The Father Of Black Gay Male Consciousness


And then I slowly discovered how many other men there were like me.  Masculine, intelligent, loving, and frustrated men like me who did not identify with the campy gay lifestyle of Christopher Street and the Castro.  Nothing is wrong with these sacred gay traditions and make no mistake that they are our cherished history and legacy but over the past decades since Stonewall the image of what is gay has transformed itself to include a much broader range of visages, we are extraordinarily diverse!  Finally I had found my niche in "Gaydom", and there were so many men like me, we were just ordinary men, not having to wave any flag but happy to do so if need be because we held our truths in our heart accepting full ownership of our truths.  We loved being men in the traditional sense but were being persecuted and ignored because of our unwillingness to assimilate into the gay milieu by assimilating the candy-striped hallmarks of heterosexual bias!  We recognised the importance of establishing the applicable hallmarks of our own shade of gay.  We did not contest or challenge the status quo as a negative, rather we expanded its credentials to include a demographic of gay man that always existed but had not been acknowledged.  We wanted to see our ordinary faces smiling in the gay parade.   Yes, we are red-blooded, bonafide gay men by right! We too stood up for gay rights whenever we were called to do so and ungrudgingly so as stewards of the civil rights of all men.  Our inclusion in the struggle only got misconstrued and ignored because we were not as colorful or exotic as the gay man haunting the fears of everyone who closes their mind to sexual and behavioral diversity. 

Essex Hemphill Contemplated Gay Marriage Decades Before It Was Legalized.
He Is The Father Of Gay Marriage


When I finally met another gay man with a similar experience it was astounding.  How did we find one another?  Why did we not simply pass one another off as “Just another smiling straight man”? What compelled two men who had altogether given up the search to open up their eyes and “See” one another?  We were instantly bonded by virtue of our shared dilemma, misunderstood, invisible, inaccessible, and incomprehensible; we were the wild card of the gay lifestyle and the image of where it is ultimately destined.  We represent the seamless assimilation of gay men into mainstream culture absent of the apt historic lingo and facade and stripped of the subcutaneous hallmarks as well…  Within the decade we have seen gay athletes breaking sexual barriers much in the same way that Black Americans broke racial barriers.  We are all brothers here and there is certainly no love lost for our happy family of beloved gay men from all walks of life whatever they call themseleves in our fabulously diverse gay community.  But they have long enjoyed their day in the sun and now it is our time to quietly share its brilliance.  We have always been here at the front line and now we can be seen standing beside each other to validate one another.  There is no conceivable end to this slowly brewing revolution of a new breed of gay men; its dawn is so exciting that I am committed to see it rise to full daylight!  Won’t you join me?


FIN


By Bigdaddy Blues

Friday, October 24, 2014

MANAGING A MODEST FIRE FOR LOVE


A MODEST FIRE…

I’m just a simple man, managing simple fears,
Don’t want to own it all, just want a cold beer,
It’s been a tough day, could use a sweet night,
With a sexy brotha who can love me right,

His lips were thick brown, as they went way down,
It took me so high, my neighbors heard signs,
The floor went bang-bang, love is a good thang,
With a sexy brotha who can spend the night,

We woke up refreshed, inhaled the thick musk,
It excited passions we had not discussed,
Some connection deeper than our rough, brown skins,
Made us feel proud that, we were both real men,

We had found fulfillment for our burning desires,
We were the good wood; we built a modest fire,
We built a warm shed, and keep the wood dry,
So that our romantic love would never die…

Fin.


By Bigdaddy Blues